just earlier today,, i went to a break fasting whose my neighborhood held, i really felt like i was in high school again.. where the popular kids, the good kids and me as the weirdo that always hangout alone..
i try to be helpful and try to engaged to their convo,, but no.. still cant get in..
i wonder why?? is it me?? is it them?? do i really invisible?? it make wonder,, how the hell did i always got a lot of friends back then?? i'm not the popular type,, but well known in high school.. or when i in college..
actually i don't care at all about them,, but i can't help feeling useless as a wife to my husband..
when i was single,, i got no problem hanging out with guys,, most of my friend are guys.. but since you got married.. i have to hangout with the wives.. i can't hangout with the husbands.. i really wish i could just hangout with them.. girls are weird!!!!!
do you know that there is some kind of a political system to hangout with girls??? yeah,, right??!! girls cant just hangout with other girls outside their circle.. maybe not all neighborhood like that, but just my neighborhood??
i don't do politics!! this is who i am. i may be quiet around new people,, but i never avoid anyone that needed my help.. i always say 'okay, sure' i'll help you in anyway i can..
i try not to be a hypocrite.. insyaallah..
