shitty shit

so, it's been a long time since i neglect this blog..
but my basic intention to write a blog is not to be famous.. but truly about me ranting about various thing in my life..

for the up date,,,  i have a new baby girl, the pregnancy feels like hell.. morning sickness for 5 months,, and then followed by a strict  diet at the last trimester of pregnancy... and the baby born few days after Idl fitri. 4010 grams and 52 cm.. rather large baby for Asian..

things that i would like to rant about is.. two weeks after my delivery,, my husband got to go on a business trip for two weeks every month.. the 3rd weeks  my diabetic, more than 80 years old father in law moved in for good... it's like i have to take care of 1 baby and 2 small children with no help what soever..
while he has other 2 daughters and 3 sons, he's got to stay with me the one with a newborn baby and a 6 years old, rather than more well establish children..  you want to know why???
the answer is simple,, because they just don't gives a shit about their father.. if they don't give a shit to their own flesh and blood father.. so why would they give a fuck to me.. their youngest brother's wife... and the most amazing thing was,, the most established person truly stated that she "DON'T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF HER FATHER BECAUSE, THE HOUSE THAT SHE'S LIVING IN IS NOT HERS, BUT IT'S HER HUSBAND'S HOUSE",, while i know that she has 2 other house,, and one of them is surely empty/vacant,, bless her heart..

so i'm in a shitty shit situation,, literally shit.. yup,, i took care 3 person shits.. real shit.. the old yellow/brown stinking shit..  and if my husband's siblings ever complained 1 itsy bitty things about their father to me.. so help me god,, i have no problem opening my mouth for business..

headache....
thanks god for my daughters for my daily enjoyment and consolation...

WEIRD NEIGHBOR

Oh man, it's going to be a very long story.

long time no see this blog.. 

the news is i'm pregnant, on my 19th weeks. already in my 2nd semester.. yeaaayyyy... the vomiting has decrease tremendously.. and i can eat again.. be expecting rapid weight gain in this few weeks..

the story about the neighbor got some correlation with the pregnancy,, and a long time before that..

have you had that particularly unusually a very annoying neighbor? this is my first time ever!!!!!

how do you handle them?? i really need some advice. i tried to talk to them, it's not working, tried to ignore them, surely didn't work.. tried to report to the neighborhood committee also didn't help either.. that is how my neighbor pig headed is.. 

At first we got off on a good start.. we are being nice to each other.. sometimes along the way, they showed few symptoms of weirdness,, but me and my husband didn't take it seriously. but years later,, they got weirder and weirder.. and this late months when i was vomiting vigorously,  a new awful smell spread around my house,, the smell of stink bug being fried in old moldy oil.. ohh the vomit become more and more terrible.. i can't even get out of my own room. i tried to report it to the neighborhood committee,, but the smell didn't stop.. i'm sure that my neighbor aware about this, because the next door neighbor suddenly inactive on the neighborhood chat rooms. the smell stopped for a week, then it began again.. the  funny thing is,, when i brought the issue up on the neighborhood forum,, it stopped for a while.. but it never stopped for good..

once when the stinky smell spread around my house,, i went outside,, and walk around my block.. the most stinkiest house is my house and my next door weird neighbor. i can't be more sure that the source is my next door neighbor

what the hell are they thinking!!!!

do they have a financial difficulty or something? but can't helped to see they have a nice car, 2 motorbike, husband working and have a laundry business.. 

what should i do with them? 

i really wish it would be over forever,, should i just move out from my own bought house? i can't burn them,, our house is wall to wall connected..

dreamt

Hi there,, long time no see...

Well, yesterday i've dreamt an ex boyfriend..
The story which i could remember were..
I was about to get into a fight but suddenly i got a blackout. When i woken up in that dream,, the ex acted like he was my husband., i still confused with why did i had a blackout.
He hug me and kiss me because he was worried, I could feel that he was worried like hell. My heart was pounding like crazy when he did all that. coz when we used to date we only goes as far as holding hand while crossing the street.
He said that we've been married for a week now.. in that dream I know that I have already married and have a daughter. But I couldn't say a word about it., my mouth seems couldn't say a word.

One thing that I could vividly remember is how my heart pounding like crazy., did I miss  that feeling.. or do I miss my husband (he's away for an audit)????

Some say I miss the ex.. I just laugh it off, how can I miss him if I have never thought of him. He's already married too and have a daughter also.

My guts tell me that I only miss the feeling of first touch, first kiss the feeling that we got when we first got into a relationship..

Well its nice to have a sweet dream anyway. ? Where else would I got the chance for first of everything all over again. ? I wouldn't risk it...

What's your sweet dreams?

MBAK MU GAK PUNYA DUIT..

That is one of my sister in-law tagline..

When a circumstance a merge those tagline will come out smoothly. you'll think she's poor right?? or she only had enough for her family only. let me ask you something,, have you seen any a legislative member poor????
yeah,, that's right.. her husband is a legislative member for province level..

my mother in-law got submitted to a hospital by a heart condition and she crashed in to a coma. the sister called my husband to deliver the news. my husband immediately told her not to put the mother into the VIP room. is my husband a cheapskate? well what can we say, we can't afford the VIP treatment.
few months ago my mother in-law got submitted to the same hospital also, and with the same reason. she was submitted to the VIP treatment by the sister in-law. when their mother released form the hospital,, the one who put the mother in VIP treatment avoided the payment with the tagline as shown as a title.. WTF!!!!!
then why the hell she put the mother in VIP if she didn't want to contribute financially!!!!!!!

And this week tagline glide trough with a reason,, that her daughter was submitted to a hospital due to malaria. what idiot would think a legislative member wouldn't got any health insurance!?  actually, friend of mine have confirmed that a legislative and family health insurance is covered by the nation tax.  even if she paid with her own money how much would it be??? will it make her broke??? while she's clutching tenths million rupiahs bags that she bought overseas.

my husband become a cynical to her sister answer when she said she had no money.. we just laugh it off and reply to her " yes mbak, when did you have any money anyway" even tough we are heart broken inside.
6 months ago, my mother in-law just told us that the sister have one of her brother to make her a safe in her room. that because she had more than 1 billion rupiahs  and she can't keep it in the bank, because of regulation, and the bank will ask the origin of the money. yes shes that rich. that is not include many other investment, houses, lands and cars.

we only will pray to god for her well being and she will have the money she needed, so she will not say her famous tagline anymore.

 i can't understand why is the most is, why the richer a person is the more stingy that person will be..

lastly, i pray for my mother in-law's well being..

Rock Star...

yes,, i was kinda very bored at that time,, so my toddler got a punk make over actually.. well here it is...

i really not recommend doing this to children,, but don't worry, she had make up on only for 10 minutes. she was about to get the afternoon bath anyway..

i used Viva queen eye liner pencil, Viva queen eye brow pencil, maybelline the magnum volum' express & maybelline fresh rose blush on & oriflame pure color radiant red lipstick..

yes about the pose,, please ignore my daughter nose picking.. :)

KRDT

Baca berita soal artis yg di pukulin sama pacarnya. the first thing that went trough my mind was "what the hell????". is she stupid or what??? where are her parents?? can they protect their own daughter?? where are friends?? she must've at least told one of her friends about his fowl mouthed, controlling freak & beater boyfriend.
kalo orang yg udah nikah kena KDRT banyak alasan knapa gwe bisa ngerasa kasihan sama mereka. tapi kalo pacaran?? NO!!! gak ada alasan lo mesti di kasihanin!! well sorry that just the way it is. coba kita break down antara KDRT & girlfriend beater.

KDRT:

- kemungkinan pas pacaran sifat aslinya tersembunyi dengan baik
- alasan malu & segan dengan keluarga besar

- anak menjadi pertimbangan

- alasan ekonomi

- tidak mau mempunyai status bercerai/gagal/janda

but beater boyfriend:

- NO REASON, gak ada alasan yg bisa mengikat lo baik secara hukum atau pun norma!!!

            obviously he doesn't conceal his bad behavior,

sorry tapi gwe mo ngomong "SEGOBLOK APA SIH LO SAMPE RELA DI KASARIN SAMA ORANG  YG ADA KETERIKATAN HUKUM & AGAMA SAMA LO" orang yg mukul itu gak mungkin sama sekali gak ada tanda2nya. sebelumnya dia cerita kalo dia di larang2 untuk ambil job sampe dia gak punya uang buat bayar listrik & cicilan,, WHAT THE F**K!!!!!! ngapain diturutin??!!!!

trus dia cerita lagi kalo marah2/berantem suka ngeluarin kata2 kasar & kebun binatang,, -HEEEE..........HH!!!!- mau2nya lo di rendahin sama orang yg notabene nothing!!! alasannya apa?? cinta??!! that is the most bullshit reason that ever exist on earth!!!!!! 

Girls please use your brain once in a while, use your logic your ratio.. don't just follow your hormones all the time!! tell your family, tell your friends, tell someone you trust. just tell them.. you don't need to be afraid or shame,, that is you being brave, that is you refusing to be a victim, that is you being beautiful, that is you being honest to yourself, that is you being smart, that is you loving yourself, respecting yourself, caring yourself!!

Girls please, protect yourselves! protect your heart, body & soul. Once it's broken, life would never be the same ever again. the whole world seems to lost it's sun. trust will be an impossible thing to give & fear will always haunt you. 

Fear Is Not Love

You Are Very Worthy for:

- love

- respect

- equality

my wishlist

my wishlist:
- a decent bronzer
- contouring foundie kit
- a polarized sunglasses for day and night
- a pair or new jeans
- a pair of a decent sandals/flat shoe for everyday use
- a new helper
- a microwave
- ability to put on false lashes????
- more patient
- slimmer figure